By: Sivuyile S. Sesi
I enjoyed my self growing up, especially schooling. In class it’s where I most felt free and open. I raised my hand and made laughs. Even though in high school I started to fail twice in my standard 10 in 2001 and 2002 (which the 9/11 and Ethiopian new year I get reminded), and in tertiary had financial limitations, it was nothing more than just life lesson. Everyday I always look forward to be at (including at Sobambisana Public Primary School to) Thembelihle Senior Secondary School and at the University of the Western Cape (UWC).
At school and tertiary I was not strictly or focused on any ideology, religion, culture or identity. I just believed in love, feeling good and holding a good and positive attitude for any thing at any situation as long as I won’t be trouble. In connecting with people I always remained on the spot where we find common ground for each others respect regardless of our background. I just believed in being good to everyone for my own sake.
I was not on terms but motivated to turn conditions around in my life. I was genuine I was not into picking up the sounding like of people I was listening to the realness of the message and still believed I am good in finding the hidden meaning, now I think I was not awake to the whole intended meaning. I was motivated for success. I took advantage of everything that could help me advance to the next step of what I am doing with out thinking along the lines of division but just meeting requirements and following instructions. For an example in a Political Studies class discussing Ideology module when other students asked us what are we doing at UWC since liberal, etc ideologies to the right appealed to us, I didn't think of them as talking of UWC as the University of left Ideologies as now I have realized its popular of. On the readings I was more looking at how good an author argues his or her point and explain what I think he or she means.
Liberty and liberal theories sounded good to me. I believed a person should do what he or she wants. So I would easily get convinced on good argument and instead on finding problems on what others are
saying or believe, I would rephrase it more using microsoft, which on my choice I would get attracted to more of liberty and liberal theories or point of views/ discussions especially when doing IQ quiz.
I was clearly listening to what a person is saying, than how he or she says it. I believed in inner calm and doing or focusing on what's positive and I love, which made me to have peace in what I do. I was in harmony not identifying opponents. I looked at things positively. I was happy, timeless, energetic, healthy and I had lots of fun. I was a natural believer of liberty, natural human’s rights and benefits. I
thought of business ideas to venture into, as now I have settled as a freelance writer. For me it felt right to let people especially an individual do what he wants as long as it doesn't harm others or hinder their rights. For an example I found nothing wrong with people using dagga which made me aware of and I believed to the power of the constitution, including that of an organization in that respect. I believed in people having good intentions, I felt no pain, in fact I could sense it miles away and avoid it.
I couldn't realize what's special for HIM Society banner to say "People with out the knowledge of their past is like a tree without roots" and UWC to say" Respice Prospice", or "emancipate yourself from
mental slavery through African Education" and UWC to say "From hope to action through knowledge", now I think on purpose they in harmony.
I couldn't understand when one called me ignorant, stupid, crazy or lacking passion because I was reading with understanding and doing my work involve in school community. In primary school I was in the boys’ choir, in high school in 2003 and 2004 I was the president of Representative Council of Learners (RCL), in the School Governing Body, Khayelitsha Education Forum and to 2005 still in Township
Debating League for high schools. I enjoyed reading especially motivational material, it inspired me.
One lecturer said I am compassionate. Dictionary.com says being compassionate means being granted in an emergency. Which that sounds like how in my third year I had difficult time and had less marks than
I thought I deserved on subject liked more.
As I am the kind of person who good in beating expectations I realize that other finds that unacceptable. They have tried to taint the reality of what's in front of my eyes and what I heard to understand to what my senses can enable to predict and foresee. Broken handling on what we can do together, no one could co operate. But the truth deep in me proved right. I need myself in as far as I can see with my
eyes and mind, reach out with my arms and mind and heart and words, go any where. To be cheated of what needs you and depend on you, that is your own responsibility, its carelessness on your own and those who rather trusted you.
When I think of moments that happened, from school to my last job as call centre agent to my graduation day in 2013 I wonder and realize a lot life lesson which makes me to positively look forward to a great tomorrow.
I got interested in business or entrepreneurship because I wanted to protect my personal interests and maintain my lifestyle, without losing the sharpness and power of my mind which was key in my kind of
corporate culture and business venture.
In growing up I had come to realize we as people we got a lot in common that we can exploit and enjoy. That even in our differences in essence we can all relate to each other.
Now I am more aware that almost everything has a similar or interrelated workout framework. Like before I still very sharp in keeping mind in meaning of what is being talked about,. I believe people must be clear and honesty, especial those in professional or position of trust, not to think in hidden meaning or more of a tricky way. Now I am open in knowing that even thou one may explain a theory well but in style or how he says it, he is giving own belief or values meaning and position. Now I am at home unemployed, just trying to generate sales and make a living on my promising freelance writing. And I still want to continue my studies.
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