The news of divorce request from her man after all those formidable marriage years did not sunk well with her rational. Stunned, despite the beggingly endorsements from her girlfriends to divorce him, yet the reality of it hit her frozen dead still like Ice Age statued mammals.
The physical symptoms of mental pressure invited her to daily pounding heart, elevated blood pressure and neck and shoulder pains.
She certainly felt that her world was about to crumble down and collapse at the bottom her joy and pride. Her marital status had all these years issued her good standing and reputation with her circle of friends and acquaintances. Let alone the bragging about the support and pampering she received from her now divorcing man.
Lucy felt every bit of her life crushed in midair or crushed and hidden deep in the ocean like wreckages of the lost September 1990-Boeing 727, with its unrecovered debris.
Sitting all by herself and murmuring words of dismay to herself was like watching a strange and weird realm revolving around her. High definition dreamy images engulfed her like a wireframed hologram scene from Iron Man. Totally trapped in this seemingly graphical daydream, the distressed Lucy anticipated the worse that could happen in this new spooky world of single parenting.
Questions of insufficient financial responsibilities rolled like casino slot numbers in the visual slide of her head, every one overlapping parallel to each other to worsen the uncertain future life outcomes.
“Will I be able to afford his medical aid with what I earn?”- Does it now mean that I should cut down on Tshepo extramural activities like his weekend extra maths classes - let alone his swimming lessons? – she worryingly flipped over her brainpower for answers.
Surely it would have been at least not been such a shattering emotional breakdown if he had no kids to worry look after or worry about.
This-can’t-be- happening-to me denial thoughts she confronted with an attitude which loudly screamed eerily to her face “Damn it, life is a bitch”.
Taken from the upcoming book by Themba Simelane : BOYS LIKE LITTLE HUSBANDS