By writing this I not writing something to change your religious beliefs. I am writing this as someone who was an Atheist, converted to Christianity, and became an Atheist again.
Why did I become an Atheist again? Well let’s just say I couldn’t live with the fact that I am not in control of my own life anymore. I couldn’t ignore the facts of scientific evidence anymore. As a recovering addict I couldn’t understand why, if god loves me, he would let the devil tempt me all the time in taking drugs. This is not a test of faith as I have been told, no this was cruel, and inhumane. Will my family tempt me all the time to use drugs. No. Why? Because they love me.
Only after I accepted that addiction is a disease. Only after I let go of my belief systems I started to truly recover. Once I started to understand how my brain works, why I think what I think, and feel what I feel, I started to recover.
Once I started to train myself to start to control my feelings, I started to make informed decisions. My impulsivity has greatly decreased, thanks to my ADHD meds. For the first time in my life, I am not empty inside. I am content, I enjoy life.
Thinking like a religious person only brings judgement on yourself, and others. The takes away your freedom to think for yourself, and the ability to take responsibility for your own actions. Does being an Atheist make me a bad person? No. On the contrary. I don’t judge others on their beliefs, their skin colour, or sexual orientation. I don’t judge myself, for breaking rules in a book. I don’t cheat on my partner, I don’t steal etc. I am far from perfect. No one is.
If a god loved me, why will he then punish me by sending me to hell? Why will a Christian then go to heaven for instance, just by asking for forgiveness?