I Pray that this what happened to me will never happen to you.
I am a widow and sorry to say became a victim, about 2 and a half years ago I almost got involved
with one of the men that belonged to the worship team in the tent on the corner of 11th and hertzog street. I then found out that This man unfortunately was still in love with his ex wife. I at the other hand was lonely and just wanted someone to love me. It all got a bit out of hand but I did not make love to him due to him resisting the temptation. I did not think much of it until the next day.
I realised that it was wrong of me to have expected this from him. I was just feeling very lonely and venerable. A couple of weeks later I decided to go back to the tent to speak to a man called Dugga who did the preaching and who still leads the worship team in this big white tent, I felt bad about the hole situation and cried out from the depths of my heart and told Dugga what I had done. I felt so bad about what I had done so I repented. A while later, I decided to go one Sunday and worship God at this tent and on that same Sunday I went up to this man that I almost got involved with and asked him to please forgive me. Dugga then stood up before the hole church and said, (do you all see that woman, she came to me cried and confessed her sin and now I tell you all, that God has forgiven her). He then looked at me and said (God has forgiven you your sin). I was very great full, so for the rest of the Sunday service I spent my time worshiping my Lord God my Savior.
In the last two and a half years I tried to live a righteous life, going to the Living Word Church twice on Sundays, I also went for prayer evenings on Wednesday evenings and to Bible classes which is very Prophetic on Thursday evenings. In that time I already had taken a man into my home that needed healing from alcohol, within time I found myself falling in love with this wonderful man, although he had no work and no way to provide for himself, this did not bother me, because we both felt the same way. We intended to get married soon, but now I am a broken person. I was truly a happy joyful Christian person until:
This man that I was helping and fell in love with told me what was said about me between Dugga and some of the congregation members at the worship tent. This is how it all started! One day not so long ago my friend went to the tent to see if they could not help him with a job, he found Dugga sitting with some of the congregation members in the tent, my friend spoke to them then turned to leave the tent, suddenly my friend realised that he had forgotten to ask Dugga something else that he wanted to find out, my friend turned and suddenly came back into the tent only to find Dugga discussing me as the woman with the short blond hair sitting next to my friend in the tent, that I am a slut and heaven knows what else he called me and that they were laughing about slandering my name.
Now the question is: Now two and a half years later I find out these accusation about me that is floating around at the worship tent in Wonderboom South. How can such a man Preach the Word of God when discussing me with other worship team members and still goes on to slander my name and this all after I have repented and asked for forgiveness, and then to top it all up, telling me and the people in the service that I am forgiven by God. If he can do this too me, what can he do too you?
I am now a very broken person, my Joy and trust in people has been destroyed. Its caused me to stay away from church and its stopped me from doing Gods work because I have so much hurt in my Heart and Soul, but I will never stop Loving our Lord Jesus Christ for He is the only one I can trust right now.
Now I have to find a way to rebuild my self in Christ. I Pray that God will help me, and I Pray that no one else will suffer this pain that I have at this time.
May God Protect and Bless you all. Amen.
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