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'Ditzy' Mariah understands
18/03/2008 14:14 - (SA)
New York - Mariah Carey knows her indisputable talent clashes with her sexed-up image as a "ditz".
"It's a dichotomy, I understand," the 37-year-old Grammy winner tells Allure magazine. "I understand that people think I am a ditzy moron."
The singer - who was treated for exhaustion in 2001 after a public meltdown - says she still struggles with her confidence.
"I've always had really low self-esteem, and I still do," she says. "What's weird about that is being onstage, and the love that you get, and the adoration that you feel from your real fans. It's hard for a partner to compete - just imagine."
Carey and ex-husband Tommy Mottola, the former chairperson and CEO of Sony Music Entertainment, divorced in 1997. She has described that relationship as controlling and says: "I had to make a decision: either lose myself completely or learn to stand up for myself. You have to be very courageous to do that."
She says she would marry again - preferably, to someone who knows where she is coming from.
"That's a big deal for me: feeling like somebody else can't fully understand me because they're not in show business. It shouldn't matter, but it does, because the energy it takes to be 'on' is a lot," she says.
Carey's latest album, EMC2, arrives on April 15. Her previous album, The Emancipation of Mimi, has sold 10 million copies.
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