IMAGINE my disappointment when I recently found out the person I trusted more than anybody else turned out to be a bit of a fake.
I was horrified. In fact, I am still a little bit confused about where it all went wrong.
I suppose life is like that: We think we know people based on what they tell us, on what they want us to believe and also on what we choose to believe.
Eventually the truth prevails. Truth is just like that.
Think about a time when you lied about something; the truth always surfaced ? sometimes because of our guilt, other times because people are really smarter than what we give them credit for. Never before did I think people are able to live double lives, but an earlier experience has disproved that theory and revealed that people can have many layers ? some of which they show and others they keep under wraps.
The problem I have with this, is how to deal with it when the other layers of a person are revealed.
Honestly, the layers which were initially exposed must have been somewhat good if you were able to sustain the friendship or love relationship or whatever relationship you had with the person. Do you therefore turn a blind eye and accept these now revealed aspects of the person? Or do you say: "Well, stuff it. I am done."
In all honesty, I am battling to do either. One half of me wants to turn a blind eye and the other is saying "stuff you".
Truth be told, we all have our hidden layers; those layers we prefer other people not to see.
I have always had a problem with people fussing over me.
I suppose I am afraid of exactly what I am doing to my friend: Being judged once they realise their expectations are not met.
Although I believe I am an independent thinker and do what I please based on my rationale, I sometimes consider what other people will think of me.
I guess we all sometimes do that, which then means we base our choices on the responses we presume they will have on our actions.
With this said I conclude that we all have a bit of Mr Hyde to our Dr Jekyll.