Craving indulgence, but a question of ethics has been raised and a response is required. Whenever the opportunity arose, and long before it became fashionable, I spoke out against apartheid. Although still a child when South Africa was due to tour England in 1971, I had played for Somerset 2nd XI and attended meetings on the topic. Only three county cricketers refused to play against that team, Mike Brearley, Peter Lever and Tom Cartwright. Cartwright was my coach, mentor and fellow traveller. Dismayed by this lacklustre reaction, I wanted to add my name to the list, but was thwarted.