#FICTION: Angela’s Anxiety (part two)

By Drum Digital
29 November 2016

"Just remember this – I will never marry a polygamist or a player!”

By Remagio Dhlamini

"Angela...” He failed to meet her gaze at first, then looked up and blurted out, "You know I love you. I have loved you from the first time I laid eyes on you. And ever since you came into my life, I've found the meaning of life and love.

“Every day since you came into my life is like more sunshine added to my already bright day. I feel rich knowing that I have the most precious gift in the world is by my side. And I know that you have loved me without fail, ever since the first day." And he gave a deep sigh.

Angela said, "So what's the problem, Thabo?"

"I messed up Angela. And I . . . I hope you can forgive me."

"What did you do, Thabo? Please tell me!” Her voice was quavering.

"Remember that weekend I went to the Palm Islands with the guys?"

"Yes.” Angela knew that the trip had been six months previously.

“I did something I shouldn't have done over there." he continued.

"What did you do, Thabo?"

"I had a one-night stand with one of the island girls.”

She stood up.

"Please wait, let me explain, Angela. Please! It was a mistake. A big mistake. I haven't been able to sleep ever since it happened. It haunts me every night that I could do something so stupid when I have the most amazing woman in the whole world.”

He was babbling now, as the words tumbled from his mouth. “I don't want to lose you. The only reason why I wanted you to know this is – because I'm ready to get married to you!

“I just couldn't bring myself to ask for your hand in marriage knowing that I'd done you wrong. Even if you didn't know about it, I still want to be honest with you. I want a marriage on a clean slate. With nothing to stop me loving you with everything I am and I have."

Angela stared at him. She felt that her heart had stopped beating as Thabo confessed. The one man she had thought would never cheat on her had done so. How could he?  She had given him everything! She didn't know how to feel or process what she was hearing. Tears began to roll down her face.

"Angela, if you choose to let this relationship end because of what I've just told you, I'll understand. If you choose to forgive me then I'm asking you to marry me, to be my wife and love for the rest of my life."

As she stood there, dumbstruck, he got down on one knee and pulled out a ring. She saw the glint of a diamond. "What will it be, Angela?" And Thabo remained poised on one knee, waiting for her next words.

She sat there weeping silently for seconds that passed like hours. And the racing thoughts were back, buzzing in her head:  Forgive him and get married? I love this man with all my heart. Is one night in another's woman's arms sufficient reason to turn him down? What's one night in another woman's arms compared to all the thousands of nights he'll be in mine?

But wait, wouldn’t forgiving him be a license for him to do the same once we're married? Would forgiveness make him disrespect her, going forward? He'd be aware that I cannot live without him, if I forgive as easily as that. Should she dump this ungrateful man? How could he do something like this after she gave him everything? After she had sacrificed everything for him!

But wait, she thought, would I have ever found out if he hadn't confessed? Isn't that a sign that he's an honest man – the kind to build a happy marriage with? Am I willing to throw away everything the two of us have built – over one mistake by him? He made the mistake, so why must I pay for it? I'm happy with him as it is. Why should his mistake be the reason to lose everything I hold dear?

Finally she spoke up, telling Thabo, “Get up. Put the ring away. Don't come back without a fistful of negative medical tests. And that had better be a week from today – I won't wait any longer. We will start again from scratch on that date. We'll see how things go. Just remember this – I will never marry a polygamist or a player!”

And as Thabo burst into tears, she stooped to comfort him.

The End

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