I was baptised in the Dutch reformed church and got dragged there Sunday after Sunday to test my ability to keep still and awake, while a dude with a big black cloak on a pulpit ranted and raved about sin and how bad we all are. Then (thankfully) we had to get up periodically to sing out of a book. Usually the men were way off tune and the women tried to outdo each other – anyway, it always sounded very serious and doomsdayish in my virgin ears.
When I started making my own choices, I ventured into the abyss (according to Protestants) of the anti-Christ: Catholicism. I did my cathecesim, confession, confirmation, and first Holy Communion, and for the first time I felt part of it all. I mean, it still is the biggest Christian religion. Now I could go get myself a Latino!
I guess when I was old enough I stopped believing in fairy tales. The children’s bible imprinted very vivid images in my head - I still sometimes have this vision in my head of a bearded old white man on a cloud and a red devil with a fork. Weird, the movies are still portrayed as my first bible.
Nothing in my time on earth, spiritually, has made more sense than what I believe to be a sensible solution to the question of an afterlife. I have not done research on this and it is possibly a conglomeration of various eastern and western beliefs. Those in the know may correct me.
The belief is that we all start at a certain zodiac sun sign with life 1. When we die, our souls come back into a new body to complete the lessons what the next sign has to offer. So we carry on until all 12 signs have been completed, after which, we come back and re-do those signs we have messed up during that life – if need be. In other words, those who do not learn enough or missed the spiritual lesson during the present life, will certainly come back to take that whole life again, only the vessel differs. Once our souls are extremely wise, unselfish, tolerant, possess courage, are at peace etc. we get taken up into the spiritual being of collective souls called God.
Questions beg to be asked: where is hell, how did it start and when or how will it end? Well, I guess hell is right here – if you don’t want your soul to learn, you will stay in an endless circle trying to catch your tail. I haven’t even a theory on how it all started – neither does anybody else – big bang maybe? When will it all end? Maybe it has already ended. Heaven may be saturated and we are left chasing our tails, or those of others (!).
When the human inherently wishes to only do good and be good, that will be the pinnacle of the soul search. When we commit “sin” or go against the grain of goodness, we know it and feel bad for it, because it is human nature to strive for good.
While I am unsure where it all started, the zodiac starts with Aries. Seeing that I am only at Gemini now – I probably have either 10 signs to work through or didn’t do this one quite the way it should have been done the first time. Anyway, I still have some tail to chase…