Cape Town - Bathandwa Xhallie, 24, may have got a 60% bursary for a Masters degree at Stellenbosch, but she only just scrapes by thanks to food given to her by a social worker."The only income in my family is a R1 000 grant which my grandmother claims. She had to go to a loan shark for money just to travel here," she said."They had offered me a 60% bursary. Not realising how expensive the university is, I took it. At home I live with my grandparents and my mother. My mom is unemployed and my grandmother gets a grant, that is all."As she moves towards getting her Masters degree in law, she said that she felt like a failure. "I get food from a social worker and I feel helpless. My bursary covers my tuition and half of my residence fees, so as of this year I owe R40 000 to the university."I have a degree. I have the piece of paper and I am an educated woman and I feel stupid. I have been to countless interviews and when they see that I did my undergraduate degree at Fort Hare University, I know that getting the job is not going to happen."She said that additional costs, like paying for medication after she was ill last month, became an insurmountable problem. "Last month I got sick and I went to the public hospital here and it was horrible. I wasn't able to get any medication. Lucky for me I have a friend who has medical aid, and she helped me get some medicine to take," Xhallie said.