- Taraji P. Henson says she thought about "just end[ing] it all" amid the pandemic.
- The actor spoke candidly about her mental health on her new Facebook Watch series Peace of Mind with Taraji.
- "For me, I'm no professional, but I felt like, if I don't say it, it becomes a plan," she said, adding that speaking about it to a girlfriend helped.
Taraji P Henson is opening up about having suicidal thoughts amid the pandemic.
"For a couple of days, I couldn't get out of the bed, I didn't care. That's not me," she said, talking to co-host Tracie Jade and licensed psychologist, Dr LaShonda Green. "Then, I started having thoughts about ending it," the Empire star said, explaining she'd recently purchased a gun and thought: "'I could go in there right now, and just end it all.'"
The actor added that she did consider her son, Marcell Johnson, and thought: "'He's grown, he'll get over it.'"
Taraji said talking about it while opening up to one of her girlfriends is what helped her.
"For me, I'm no professional, but I felt like, if I don't say it, it becomes a plan," the Oscar nominee said. "And what scared me, is that I did it two nights in a row. And the thoughts kept coming. Now I started to think about how. At first, it was like, I don't want to be here. And then I started thinking about going and getting the gun. And that's why when I woke up the next morning, and I blurted it out. Because I felt like after a while, it was going to take over me, and it was going to become a plan because that's how strong my brain is."
The South African Depression and Anxiety Group (SADAG) can be reached at: 0800 21 22 23 or 0800 456 789 (24 hours, 7 days a week).