Thuso Mbedu had suicidal thoughts during her 'darkest year'

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  • In an interview with Emmy Magazine, South African actor Thuso Mbedu spoke candidly about her "darkest year" and having thoughts of suicide.
  • She "made friends with this cough syrup" that made her hallucinate. "I'd lost all hope," she said.
  • Overcoming the hardships in her life inspired the inspirational message she has tattooed under her collarbone.


In an interview with Emmy Magazine, South African actor Thuso Mbedu spoke candidly about her "darkest year" and having thoughts of suicide.

It was recently announced that The Underground Railroad actor, who hails from KwaZulu-Natal, would join Academy Award-winning actor Viola Davis in the feature film The Woman King.

But speaking to Emmy Magazine, Thuso said that the road to success has been marked by trauma. 

In 2016, after graduating from the University of the Witwatersrand in Johannesburg, Thuso explained that casting briefs stopped coming in, bills piled up, and she was unable to find work for six months. 

She described the period in her life as "my darkest year". 

She "made friends with this cough syrup" that made her hallucinate. "I'd lost all hope. The only reason I didn't take my life in 2016 was my sister. Everything that I've gone through, every person that I've lost, my sister has also lost. So, it wouldn't be fair for me to add my body to all the losses my sister has faced," she said.

But not long after that, she was cast as Winnie, the lead in the series Is'Thunzi, which would earn her two International Emmy nominations.

Overcoming the hardships in her life inspired the inspirational message she has tattooed under her collarbone.

"It says, 'Faith, Hope, Love.' Because without faith in God, without hope... Oh my gosh, I would not wish it to anyone," said Thuso. 

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