Cape Town - It’s been almost 10 months since rapper HHP’s death, and his wife Lerato Sengadi has been very open about missing him.
Just last month, the publicist shared a heart-warming video of some of their memories together and mentioned in the caption how she dreads the 24th of every month, the day of the Motswako artist’s death. “I dread the 24th every single month. It reminds me that I’m doing this life thing without you,” she wrote.
Now, in a most recent post, Lerato shared the painful reason behind her no longer wearing her wedding ring.
“I think the world doesn’t realize how strong we, as women, are! We are literally like teabags, the longer we soak in hot water the stronger we get! We carry so much and survive SO much and STILL show up,” she began.
“A few weeks ago, I had something traumatic happen to me. As mundane as it may have seemed it was super shocking and heart breaking. I woke up one morning, got ready for work & as I was putting on my beautiful ring that Motho gave me it literally slid off my finger. Like slid all the way off! My once perfectly fitting, specially selected, symbol of love had now become so big that if I wore it I would definitely lose it. I stood there and looked at my naked ring finger. It hit me like a ton of bricks that I can no longer wear my ring. I already knew that it couldn’t be resized because of the design but the reality of it was so painful to accept. My heart, body, mind & spirit had been battered so much in a short space of time that that moment became a physical manifestation of my reality. My Motho isn’t here. His physical symbol of love could no longer be a daily part of me. Ouch!” she wrote.
Lerato explained how she didn’t really focus on the incident until she went to visit Reason and LootLove’s home, to meet their twin girls.
"I put it into the back of my mind and focused on work. It wasn't until I went to visit Reason (to meet Hip & Hop for the first time) that it really hit me. I stood there crying in front of him (also not for the first time... I guess my spirit feels free enough around him to just be free to feel what it needs to feel in that moment. Motho felt the same about him actually.. anyway...). I got home that evening, prayed and went straight to bed," she wrote.
“But guess what? The next morning I woke up. I actually woke up. I didn’t die. I survived yet another traumatic experience which was a by product of a larger traumatic experience. I thanked God for strength to try again that day.
See! We are strong! We are survivors! Celebrate your victories. No matter how small and mundane they may seem to others. You were strong enough to survive life’s daily lashings. And THAT makes you more magical than any unicorn could possibly be!”
Lerato concluded by thanking Jenna Clifford for sending her another ring to wear in place of her wedding ring from her husband.