CS , I am really blessed in my life. I mean really. I have made some terrible choices with some awesome consequences. I feel that I am just "cursed" to have a blessed and happy life. The problem is this . My mom needs some serious life skills. I am over trying to save her. Her boyfriend , who she has a restraining order against...ha ha ha... stuck a knife in her back couple months ago...while she had a restraining order against him...so much for following through. I am worried for her life and want her life to be normal , but i have made peace with that she needs to make the decisions to change herself. I feel guilty ( sometimes only) for being so blessed while she suffers so. Is this the universes ( spelling?) way , or Gods way of saying sorry that you had a crap childhood? I haven't earned much of the blessings in my life...it just happens...its like , what i speak comes to life ....eventually. I sometimes feel like i am an adult of 50 or 60 , but i am 24 ( my b-day was last week! Yay!!!)
Maybe i am not as blessed as i think i am and i just see every little good thing in my life as a miracle...could be.....