Don't give so much power to other people who aren't worthy of it. Its interesting that you chose to post this pessimistic message, at a place where people are likely to want to be helpful in their responses, and insist that we must not even try, and must leave you to be miserable. Of course, as you are anonymous, we are not able to intervene directly, but you sound so depressed, and so much can and should be done to remedy that, that one wonders why you don't get energetically involved in therapy with a proper shrink. It could hardly make things worse than the situation you describe, and if it made things better, would that be such a bad thing ?