Dear ABC,
Sorry to hear that you are still feeling so desperate, but it sounds as though wise decisions were made by those who care about you. Don't jump off anything, or otherwise harm yourself. Give everything a chance to be helpful. I understand that at this stage it all seems unlikely, as the gloom created by the chemistry of depression both magnifies your sadness and pessimism, and adjusts your brain, unhelpfully, towards ignoring everything positive. Work with your psychiatrist and others, take the medicines correctly and give them some time to work ( you mmay feel benefits within days, but it needs 2 weeks or more for them to exert their full effects ) and give yourself and your loved ones the good chance which you so much deserve.
I'm hoping we will soon be hearing further from you just as frankly, but more positively, as the recovery begins.