hi ,i had a very confused sexual life till now. when i was young boy i was pushed into homosexuality by a relative and my own sexual energy.probably at that time i was not aware of the term 'gay'.i always fantasised about making love to a female but ended up in a homo situation.after i grew up i was attracted to women only and never men but still when i mastrubate ,even though i imagine having sex with a female, i stimulate my ass with...whatever.during my childhood when i was probably 5 yrs i was made to give a blowjob ,not forcibly though but coaxing me into some story.
my sexual energy takes me over and once i had a young boy massage me.
i have sometimes hate all this,this guilt takes me over and also thought of comitting sucide.
i have fallen in love once with a gal .once enjoyedan oral sex exp with a gal. i was broken after she was gone .what am i? i will be marrying soon .don't know how big a sexual mess i would be.dear sexologist u are my angel pls help me all this is drivin me crazy