Ask an expert

27 Jan 2006

hi ,i had a very confused sexual life till now. when i was young boy i was pushed into homosexuality by a relative and my own sexual energy.probably at that time i was not aware of the term 'gay'.i always fantasised about making love to a female but ended up in a homo situation.after i grew up i was attracted to women only and never men but still when i mastrubate ,even though i imagine having sex with a female, i stimulate my ass with...whatever.during my childhood when i was probably 5 yrs i was made to give a blowjob ,not forcibly though but coaxing me into some story.
my sexual energy takes me over and once i had a young boy massage me.
i have sometimes hate all this,this guilt takes me over and also thought of comitting sucide.
i have fallen in love once with a gal .once enjoyedan oral sex exp with a gal. i was broken after she was gone .what am i? i will be marrying soon .don't know how big a sexual mess i would be.dear sexologist u are my angel pls help me all this is drivin me crazy
Answer 276 views

01 Jan 0001

You were sexually abused as a child - "not pushed into homosexuality" - with the help of a therapist you are the only one that can help yourself. There are great self help books for Sexual abuse survivors - A courage to heal is one of them.

Please contact a Psychologist in your area and start somewhere.

Prof E Mc
The information provided does not constitute a diagnosis of your condition. You should consult a medical practitioner or other appropriate health care professional for a physical examination, diagnosis and formal advice. Health24 and the expert accept no responsibility or liability for any damage or personal harm you may suffer resulting from making use of this content.
Voting Booth
Have you entered our Health of the Nation survey?
Please select an option Oops! Something went wrong, please try again later.
33% - 9371 votes
67% - 19387 votes