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13 Aug 2011

I''m such a mess :-(
I don''t know what''s going on anymore.... I don''t know how to have fun, I don''t know how to be part of the crowd, I don''t know anything. I had friends, years ago, but after I left the company we were working at they dropped me, gossiped about me (the one even went so far as to tell people I loosened the wheels of her car- I can''t even open glass jars half the time)... I tried to make new friends but the one never returned disks that I borrowed her, because she had damaged them and given them to some one I didn''t even know, who in turn didn''t want to return them. I only found this out after she threatened to sue me for harrassment because I was bugging her so much. I tried again, but this friend kept me waiting for two hours at a bar and when I said lets rather go out next weekend, I never heard from her again. I didn''t go out for months at a time- I didn''t want to. When I did go with my boyfriend, I could never enjoy myself because I would be left by myself while he chatted to everyone he knew. He''s very extroverted, I''m extremely introverted and when we go out, I feel lonely and losery and I can''t enjoy myself and get annoyed at the stupidest things. I don''t drink alcohol (last night I got annoyed because the barman told me there was no coke, but I could see the tins in the fridge, and that just ruined it for me), I don''t smoke, I don''t belong. I''m a social misfit. I''m always tired, moody, and people think I''m a bitch. I don''t want to live like this, I get jealous of people having fun when I can''t.... How do I change?
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CyberShrink
cybershrink

01 Jan 0001

OK, it sounds as though the way your "friends" begaved after you left that workplace, proves bwyond doubt that they were NOT friends of yours ( and probably not friends of each other, either - they'd probably be as ugly to each other had another of them left ). So you are very well rid of them. The paranoid one sounds more like she has a few screws loose, and not in her car wheels.
Seems you've had really bad luck, SO FAR, with "friends". And it sounds as though you may have a primary problem with low self-esteem and self-confidence, needing the agreement of others to feel good about yourself, or to enjoy yourself. Seeing a counsellor could greatly help you to improve these matters, and be more confident and less easily swated negatively by others. ( Don't let a lazy and lying barman make you feel bad. Instead, order a brandy and coke, without the brandy. )
And most of those awful people are pretending to have a great time, but I doubt whether they are.
Counselling will be the answer, so you can first discover how great you are, and then share that with others
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