I;m sure after the weekend, when most of our readers return, they'll have lots of suggestions for you. As a shrink, I recognize this commonly raised problem as the typical discomfort or pain of ealing with loss and grief, which takes time ( often 6 to 9 months at least ) and real work, perhaps even with the help of a counsellor, to get through. Loss is part of life's rich pattern, and you seem to be describing typical aspects of how it normally proceeds.