Yesterday morning my man and best friend ( who is his sister in law ) had huge fight, he came and told me im not to have anything to do with them, i didn't respond and as usual im stuck in the middle don't want to turn against either of them. He said then i should go live with them. I left it at that later on n the day he let rip at me again i don't even know what triggered it i was at home the whole time doing washing.
He had a wrench in his hand and smashed the clothes cupboard to pieces i grabbed my pregnant dog and hid under the table with her scared she was gonna get hurt by the wood flying around. Anyway after he calmed down i was in a state jumped in my car with my dog and went to their place i could barley see out my eyes i was crying so much i let rip of them and said i was tired every week its something with them im tired of the fighting cos im always the one thats stuck inthe middle, i left there in a state and sat on the beach to cool down.
When i got home my man said i must decide now if i wanna go live with them and i must decide what i want in the flat and go he'll help me load it in the car so i phoned my dad infront of him and asked if i could move home he said yes his waiting for me i started packing my stuff and my man started slitting his wrists i laughed at him and said those blades are so blunt they wont even cut through his kin and then proceeded to take them away form him and i asked him why his doing it he said he can't anymore and if i leave then he will have nothing to live for.
we spoke everything out i finished the washing and he made supper then everything was fine this morning it was also fine.
But its still bugging me why? How do handle the situation from here on i don't wanna lose my friend or my man, but i have to choose how do i choose i don't want to. He really scared me yesterday with his temper ive never seen him like that before and the thing he said that hurt me most is that when he sees things he doesn't like he gets out like i relationship that i don't wanna choose im not standing by him. Please help me i want to resolve this but how.