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24 Dec 2004

schizophrenia giant
I grew up with a schizophrenia giant,
he was so huge and so definant...
an body so long and so broad...
he could crush my arms with a wisper of a flex...
evil eyes thinkin of a hex...

and when he got mad things began to break...
sometimes my bruses were excused as a fallin mistake...
sometimes my mind could not find a reason to believe
that the schizophrenia giant wasn't here to deceive...
to take away the gloom and bring in the sunshine...
the schizophrenia giant put my life on the line...

one time, two time, three time, four... this became life and wondered how i walked through that door...
then one day... he came up to me, put a gun to my head and said he would set me free... inside a man broke through a child... to soon for a small body to take, was the schizophrenia giant sent by god to forsake... a young mind, an innocent, a beliver... was this cane and able in reality... was this giant going to pull the triger from of the gun that was pointin at me...

no more fear and no more pain... a giant finger could have ended lifes game... no more beatins, no more upset sleepins... was this a child, a new man the end of life and the curse of the dambed...

i forgave that giant for what he has done to me, a man now, a triger didn't go off somehow... a plan by the evil man stan, maybe an intervention of devine perfection...

but evil stan took another plan for the child that became a man, he cast down a black plague infectin a body makin it weak... made the schizophrenia giant more and more... a balance upset by nature... but i still stand here as a gaurdian... for the protection of a family... from aschizophrenia giant sent by stan the man to haunt me...


how will it all end up... the giant may have beat me but i never gave up... he stands before me each and every mornin, my mind is fightin for the freedom that is dawnin... whatever tomorrow brings i will b there, i will protect my family and loved ones from him, i will not bow down to somethin that i did not begin, and in the end stan, the man... i shall b the only one standin...


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CyberShrink
cybershrink

01 Jan 0001

Morning, Dude,
YOu, and Juzlisen, are both awesome, and it's good that you're talking to each other. As uual, you express vividly and movingly, some of what troubles you. As you know, abuse is always wrong, but, as Juz's story suggests, the abuser only wins when we choose to give them the power to do so ; and when we allow them to continue to influence us and disturb us, even when they're not present. I know you won't allow that giant to win, and that instead, you'll allow him to shrink into the pathetic little bully he always was. Bullies are able to convince us that they are giants, but genuine giants don't need to bully anyone, because they are strong enough to be gentle. Have a good Christmas and new Year, Dude, and keep on feeding the right wolf !
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