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04 Dec 2004

Shaun and everyone else out there
Hi Doc,
Please can you tell what is going on with my life at the moment?
I Have been crying this whole week for no reason at all
When I picked Sammy up yesterday afternoon she told me that I am her best friend that made me so happy I just wanted to cry
She played a song for me awhile ago I think the name Is daddies little girl , I played it this morning I burst into tears I have not cried for years am I having a nerves break down ?
Yesterday I felt like running away from everyone I know and just disappear and never see anyone again I have been things of the people I have hurt over the years and I am not going to blame the bipolar disorder I have its me. I don’t ever want to hurt anyone again in my life and I don’t deserve to be loved by someone as I will just make their life a misery . From today onwards I am coming to work and going home have no contact with anyone but the x and Sammy she is my life so I have to stick around for her no more going to the restaurant I always go to where the ladies look after me every day except Sundays as they are closed . For the first time in my life I went to the bottle store to buy booze for home us so I can start to forget about everything I have done to people that have loved me i think i am going to become a hermit so i cant hurt anyone again in my life time
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01 Jan 0001

I doubt that you're having a nervous breakdown. Some music, some songs, either because we used to hear them at a significant time in our lives, or because the mood or words echo something very deeply meaningful for us, can arouse emotions, including tears of diferent sorts ( sad, nostalgic, etc).
The conclusion that is important to draw, when thinking of anyone you may have hurt duing your bipolar illness, must not be one about disappearing, or anything else that would further hurt them and others, but one of learning from mistakes made in the past, and resolving to learn ( with the aid of a good counsellor ) how to avoid makiing such hurtful mistakes in the future. You don't need to become a hermit, as you can, on the contrary, bring joy to others. Any form of harm to yourself hurts others ; work with a therapist and get through this patch.
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