LANDISA | How I recovered after I had Peri-Natal Distress after I fell pregnant

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Lauren Shapiro. (supplied)
Lauren Shapiro. (supplied)

It got so bad that I was having major panic attacks and days when I was too terrified to get out of bed, even to take the kids to school. I had horrifying visions and thought I was going insane, writes Lauren Shapiro.


I could feel the judgement burning into my forehead like a scarlet letter D as I lapped the hospital corridors: I had no cast, no crutches, no IV stand trundling alongside me. And yet I was ill. It was a daily fight against the disease.

I was 18 weeks pregnant and hospitalised for Peri-Natal Distress (PND). This is my story.

When I fell pregnant with our third (planned) baby, my husband and I were over the moon. I had adored my two previous pregnancies because, after the morning sickness subsided at around 12 weeks, I felt beautiful, blissful, and radiant.

So this time around, when I found myself sinking into a state of increased darkness and fear, I was confused and distressed. At first I was ashamed and tried to hide what I was going through, afraid of the judgement of others. I told myself it would pass, but instead of improving, I got worse.

I realised something was very wrong, but I couldn’t put my finger on what it was. This was more than the usual fatigue and moodiness that comes with many pregnancies (including my previous two).

It got so bad that I was having major panic attacks and days when I was too terrified to get out of bed, even to take the kids to school. I had horrifying visions and thought I was going insane. That’s when we sought help through SADAG, and I was diagnosed and hospitalised with PND.

PND is not a terminal illness, but it can be a fatal one. PND can destroy marriages, break up families, wreck careers and, in the most extreme cases, result in suicide and/or infanticide.

The challenge with diagnosing PND is that many of its symptoms – such as changes in appetite or sleep patterns – are natural results of pregnancy and early motherhood. Similarly, many tired expectant or new moms don’t have the time that they used to for personal grooming or hobbies. 

However, when these symptoms interfere with a woman’s ability to cope with daily life and connect with her child, or include other more ominous indicators, action should be taken to help her immediately.

Neither my OBGYN (obstetrician-gynecologist) nor my psychologist (whom I was seeing for work-related issues but with whom I’d also discussed my current state of mind) picked up on my PND. Both are caring, competent professionals, but lacked the information and resources to help me at the time. Under the subsequent care of an informed psychologist-psychiatrist team, I eventually achieved a full recovery.

This highlights the importance of making information readily accessible to medical and mental healthcare professionals. If you don’t know what it’s like, how can you help?

Talk to your colleagues, talk to your friends, but most importantly talk to your patients. The more people know about PND, the quicker it can be treated, and the healthier and happier our society will become. 

This essay was published in partnership with the South African Anxiety and Depression Group (Sadag).

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