I don’t know if becoming a mother upended my career, or if my career upended my ability to be a competent mother. I’ll never know.
What I do know, is that on reflection, becoming a mother was the psychological equivalent of slamming into a brick wall at high speed. The deceleration on every aspect of me was devastating.
Maybe it’s better to describe it as a multi-car head on collision at a four-way stop, with me driving every car. Me the woman, me the wife, me the daughter and me the working professional, mangled all at once into me the mom.